DOUBTS IN COLLEGE

This has been a pretty moody week. I don't know if these are just because of the hormones (hahaha, hey it's that time of the month -_-), or I just had a reality check.

The truth is, I'm not really happy with the degree course I'm in. I don't know what's gotten into me, but I've been having doubts with what I'm going to do with my future. Most of my friends know

what they're gonna do with their life, while I'm still undecided. I feel so lost with the world.

I guess it started when I found out that I couldn't shift to the course I really want in

UP Manila -- Speech Language Pathology. It's new and it involves speech (I love speaking hihi) and it's something that caught my attention. Yes, it will be a difficult way up to the top of it, but I know that it will be worth it. But what can I do? They won't accept shifties until the year 2016.

By that time, I'm already graduating. And they only offer that degree course in UP Manila and UST.

It really made me feel lonely when I knew about it :(((

That's why I've been ranting the whole week about how unhappy I am with the course I'm in.

BS in Management is just not in my heart. I thought I could love Management as time went by,

and for a moment I actually thought I did. Especially with all those motivations, inspirational talks and all,

but it just didn't work. These doubts are just getting the best of me.

So as of now, I really don't know what to do with my college life, I'm super clueless of what may happen later on, I don't know what's gonna happen to me after college. But whatever decision I make next,

I'll make sure that I'll be graduating by the year 2016. No more extensions, I HOPE.

♥ FOR DANCE = ♥ FOR ACADEMICS

"When you dance, you have to live in the moment. When you make a mistake, forget about it and just keep dancing."

I never thought that I'd be <<<this>>> attached to dancing. Ever since I was a little kid, I actually do some dancing but not as intense as I reached college. I mean, hello it's COLLEGE. Most people think of college as an important matter when it comes to one's future, but I keep on dancing rather than focusing on my academics. Especially when we're talking about UP. It's like you have to go through a lot of twists and turns before you graduate. Not to mention you have to work really hard to graduate on time. Like what most people say,

"Mahirap pumasok sa UP, pero mas mahirap lumabas!"

It means that -- yes it's hard to get in to UP, but it's even harder to get out, you know when you graduate. And hell yes that statement is soooo true. :O

Anyways, even though dancing is pretty much getting in the way of my academics, takes up a lot of my time for myself (and my family and my friends), and pretty much gets in the way of almost everything, I just can't say no to dancing. I know that I'm not one of the best dancers in our school, but I never stop because I know I can do better. My parents keep on telling me that it will be my last chance to dance, but they can't seem to stop me if I really really want to.

That's how much I love dancing. If you're not one of the best dancers out there, it doesn't mean you can't be one. You should never stop. Dancing made me realize that if I want to do well in my academics (which I'm pretty sure I suck at right now), I should think of it as if like I'm dancing. I should focus on my academics and work hard on it in the same way I concentrate in memorizing steps and how the dance routine goes.

I guess I should love my academics the way I love dancing. I should never stop till I get that shot. ;)

Photo: weheartit

HASHTAG PHOTOSHOOT

July 17, 2013. One Wednesday, while we were preparing for our Acquiantance Party, 

my friends and I got bored. One of them brought a camera with a new "super zoom in" lens, and sooo, yeah.

Since we had to wait for hours for the party to start, we decided to have our own photoshoot for fun.

lol I know :3

It was pretty fun. At least for one afternoon, we knew what it felt like to be in a photoshoot.

Well, minus the lighting and all the wires and everything else. Mehehe

The photos were taken at our school's football field (UP Visayas Iloilo City Campus).

And yes, our school isn't that big. Unlike the campus in Miag-ao.

The top that I'm wearing was actually a dress. It was too long to be just a top and too short to be a dress, so I had to cut it. I'm just a fan of DIY. I've been looking at other blogs on how to do DIY. I like it. It's unique and involves lots of fun.

So, can I pass as a model or something like that? Hahaha!

These are just some of the photos because there were just too many! ♥

(c) for all the photos, Danna Javellana

Throwback Not-So-Thursday

THEN AND NOW

This photo was actually posted on a Thursday on my Instagram for a #throwbackthursday post.

I KNOW, I look reallyyyyy different. I'm a transformer loljk.

When I showed this photo to my friends, they were shocked and they laughed too much because of the big difference between then and now, and they remembered my Dora hair last year.

I actually deleted almost all of my photos last year. Hahaha. Self-embarrassment lol.

But can you actually believe the 'transformation'? Hahaha. I can't believe I looked like that last year. Omggg.

But hey, I'm not the only one with embarrassing photos when I was a Freshman. ;) 

THE SHIRT SAYS IT ALL

STRESSED, DEPRESSED, BUT WELL-DRESSED.

Hell yes, it has really been very stressful and depressing these past few days with academics and extra-curricular activities.
Academics are driving me crazy, primarily when you're coming from a school with a high class educational system. Ehem, ehem, UP. Having FOUR major subjects instead of three this semester is messing up my time management for my subjects. Not to mention they're all Math related -.- I HATE MATH. But I do love my course, BS in Management. *like a boss*. I am seriously mind-fcked by most of my subjects. Information overload, I must say.

Yes, I come from UP. A lot of people think that it's all about the academics and stuff. That's what we all thought. But UP itself has a bunch of activities almost every month. Activities that sometimes get in the way of our studies. But hey, our life would be totally boring if we only do academic stuff. It simply means we are capable of doing a lot more things other than concentrating on our acads.

Despite these stressing and depressing moments, I manage to dress up pretty well *mehehe*
And since our school doesn't have a dress code or whatever, we can totally wear anything we want.
I'm not comfortable when I'm wearing clothes I don't feel like wearing. And besides, I dress up because I want my crush to notice me all the time. HAHAHA
Just like what Verniece Enciso says,
Always dress like you're gonna see your worse enemy. ❤